There's a reason they call it X

Last night took approx 100mg MDMA (green pill, about 3mm diameter, Fast Forward sign on it).

Started timer. Went out for a walk in the rain on the nature trail that runs behind the hyper center. A strange ether-real twlight but no noticable effects. Decided to return home to drink some Yerba Mate, a South American beverage similiar to coffee but longer lasting and w/o many of coffees side effects.

Decided to sit down and meditate given that outside it was cold and rainey. Some initial feeling started about ten to fifteen minutes into the meditation. By twenty five minutes (approx 1 hour 40 minutes by the drug timer) it hit me.

When I say it hit me, I mean it hit me so hard and fast I thought it was adulterated with another substance, possible a 2-C analog? My vision blurred, my heart raced, and I felt a surge of swelling energy. I thought best to acidify my system so, with hands shaking in felt panic I popped 500 mg of vitamin C. I calmed down a little after that and realized it was just going to be a plain old X roll, but it was very powerful.

So powerful I started to close my eyes and just listen to the irock player. I was almost nodding off, not to sleep mind you but from the sensual body high. I wanted to read, but my eyes were having real troulbe focusing (pupil dialation) and mystagimus (eye wobbling). Jaw Clenching wasnt that bad but it was there.

I was, for about two and half hours in total exstacy. The greek root of exstacy, ekstasis, is translated as meaning displacement or being outside (one's self). I was having a good time just lying on the floor writing in pure joy. I ate a banna; it was the best damn banna I ever tasted.

This pill I bought for twenty dollars gives us a clue. I'd had another pill roughly same dimensions and diameter and clearly MDMA around this time last year (at Petit Jean state park). Needless to say it was not as good as this green fast forwards stamped pill. Some other pills I have taken here and there struck me as being "flat". They never acheive the sort of high that you expect/want from a good MDMA roll.

Without going into the technical details, this green pill was from a chemist whose synthesis method had a very high yield "and" stero control, meaning the isomer of MDMA was specifically produced. As Shulgin points out MDMA has isomers. " With MDMA, the usual assignments of activity to optical isomers is reversed from all of the known psychedelic drugs. The more potent isomer is the "S" isomer, which is the more potent form of amphetamine and methamphetamine."

You can read more about the isomers: http://www.erowid.org/library/books_online/pihkal/pihkal109.shtml

What a roll! Wowza is all I can say. It was really fantastic. Super-duper hero like even. Well worth the twenty dollars spent.

At about the two hours thirty mark I ate some more vitamin C and 100 mg of 5-htp, the latter is a serotonine precursor. I got a good nights rest with the help of melatonin and feel very good in the recovery phase. The NIDA drug warriors claim that MDMA kills brain cells, etc. What they don't say is how effective modest amounts of vitamin C are at preventing oxidative stress and free radical damage. Also, loading with a serotonine precursor prior to or after the roll greatly reduces or elminates altogether the MDMA hangover many experince.

Peace,