There's a reason they call it X

Last night took approx 100mg MDMA (green pill, about 3mm diameter, Fast Forward sign on it).

Started timer. Went out for a walk in the rain on the nature trail that runs behind the hyper center. A strange ether-real twlight but no noticable effects. Decided to return home to drink some Yerba Mate, a South American beverage similiar to coffee but longer lasting and w/o many of coffees side effects.

Decided to sit down and meditate given that outside it was cold and rainey. Some initial feeling started about ten to fifteen minutes into the meditation. By twenty five minutes (approx 1 hour 40 minutes by the drug timer) it hit me.

When I say it hit me, I mean it hit me so hard and fast I thought it was adulterated with another substance, possible a 2-C analog? My vision blurred, my heart raced, and I felt a surge of swelling energy. I thought best to acidify my system so, with hands shaking in felt panic I popped 500 mg of vitamin C. I calmed down a little after that and realized it was just going to be a plain old X roll, but it was very powerful.

So powerful I started to close my eyes and just listen to the irock player. I was almost nodding off, not to sleep mind you but from the sensual body high. I wanted to read, but my eyes were having real troulbe focusing (pupil dialation) and mystagimus (eye wobbling). Jaw Clenching wasnt that bad but it was there.

I was, for about two and half hours in total exstacy. The greek root of exstacy, ekstasis, is translated as meaning displacement or being outside (one's self). I was having a good time just lying on the floor writing in pure joy. I ate a banna; it was the best damn banna I ever tasted.

This pill I bought for twenty dollars gives us a clue. I'd had another pill roughly same dimensions and diameter and clearly MDMA around this time last year (at Petit Jean state park). Needless to say it was not as good as this green fast forwards stamped pill. Some other pills I have taken here and there struck me as being "flat". They never acheive the sort of high that you expect/want from a good MDMA roll.

Without going into the technical details, this green pill was from a chemist whose synthesis method had a very high yield "and" stero control, meaning the isomer of MDMA was specifically produced. As Shulgin points out MDMA has isomers. " With MDMA, the usual assignments of activity to optical isomers is reversed from all of the known psychedelic drugs. The more potent isomer is the "S" isomer, which is the more potent form of amphetamine and methamphetamine."

You can read more about the isomers: http://www.erowid.org/library/books_online/pihkal/pihkal109.shtml

What a roll! Wowza is all I can say. It was really fantastic. Super-duper hero like even. Well worth the twenty dollars spent.

At about the two hours thirty mark I ate some more vitamin C and 100 mg of 5-htp, the latter is a serotonine precursor. I got a good nights rest with the help of melatonin and feel very good in the recovery phase. The NIDA drug warriors claim that MDMA kills brain cells, etc. What they don't say is how effective modest amounts of vitamin C are at preventing oxidative stress and free radical damage. Also, loading with a serotonine precursor prior to or after the roll greatly reduces or elminates altogether the MDMA hangover many experince.

Peace,

Electric Cars

Estimates vary as to how much the Iraq war has costs the US, but in general 500 billion seems to be a conservative estimate.

Electric Cars:

(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Electric_car)

AC induction motors are very efficient. Electromechanical transmission is what the big locomotives use to move mile long coal trains.

The Disabled:

People with disabilities who get around very efficiently and quietly using electric wheel chairs and the like really bother me. They are mocking the hydrocarbon economy and blood for oil politics. I think that if the consumer public isn’t allowed to have transportation that efficient, neither should the disabled. If electric motors aren’t good enough for cars, why are they good enough for locomotives and the disabled? I think they should all have their electric driven transports replaced with small, loud and polluting engines.

Electric Cars and Standard Oil:

If we look at the applications of electric motors for the very large and the very small we find they are suitable to both tasks. Electric motors are not only more efficient than ICE; they also have fewer moving parts resulting in more reliable service. Where efficiency AND reliability is necessary there you will find an electric motor.

Why then do we still use internal combustion engines to go to the store or the mall or to work or home?

Explanation (generic): The big oil companies know there is still a lot of oil in the ground. They make money by selling that oil, and they control our politics. Also, they control the automobile manufacturing companies. At the level of production they won’t allow alternatives because it’s bad for business. It goes without saying that they won’t allow the political order to countermand their striving for profit. The average consumer does not have the means to make a vehicle, so she has to purchase a means of transportation from what the market provides. Since the market only provides one type of transport medium (ICE), the consumer has to accept that.

THCA Synthase YEAST!!!

Finals are finally over!

The prohibition of alcohol is an impossible task because yeast catalyses the synthesis of alcohol. Basically anyone so motivated can, with a little knowledge, ferment their own beverages.

According to this article, http://www.nisr.or.jp/englishHP/report2004/NISR04taura.pdf:

Through simple genetic manipulation a Japanese scientist has coaxed tobacco plant and yeast cultures to express a “THCA synthase enzyme.” THCA, tetrahydrocannabinolic acid, is decarboxylated upon heating into the primary psychoactive molecule of cannabis, THC.

If such GM yeast cultures were robust enough and became available through the bio-tech industry to non-industry enthusiasts, it could in theory make the production of an illicit narcotic (THC) about as easy as making moonshine. (One other vital component is missing: a gene sequence for the synthesis of cannabigerolic acid.)

My question: what government agency should be appointed the task of overseeing GM organisms so things like this don’t become publicly accessible? Can the civilian authorities control GM yeast once the “genie is out of the bottle?” The patent itself explains in detail how the THCA synthase expression factor was spliced into a substrate organism, the mechanics of which are not beyond UCA biology dept.’s capabilities.

Currently it is possible to order GM organisms that express desired gene sequences over the internet. Although the criteria I have outlined for one such species is specific, and assuming some initial high cost, self-sustaining cultures could replicate at little or no cost indefinitely.


Directions:
Take 2 liters of water, boil and saturate with cane sugar until no more sugar dissolves. Place saturated sugar solution into 2 L clean plastic milk jugs or water jugs. Add THCA synthase expressing yeast. Be sure to allow for release of CO2. Wait one week. Add more sugar and yeast as needed.

Mark Twain

Mark Twain called the Book of Mormon "chloroform in print."

I wonder if anyone can verify this?

Strattera

Started Strattera 18mg on Nov 2nd, worked up to 25 mg, then 40 mg. Discontinued due to side effects which include:

Chronic dry mouth
hypertension
rapid heart rate
insomnia
too easily awakened
appetite suppression
dysphoria
suicidal ideation
psychotic ideation

Withdrawal is mild and includes severe bout of suicidial ideation, irritability, dysphoria and fatigue.

Update: Withdrawal is more than mild. Profusive cold sweat, flu like symptoms such as headache, chills, fever, restlessness, lack of appetite, slight dizziness, rapid heart rate.

Despair, failure, criticism

UCA is an ugly place now. It's become impersonal and congested. The track is now a parking lot. The hyper center is unusable owing to the excess enrollment. The library is always full. The town of Conway has become bloated with failed dreamers, middle class peons full of contempt. I can't participate in UCA anymore. The dream has been beaten to death. The indulgences have been saturated, and then taken one step further. If things weren't working I would just double the effort. Now the futility of that effort is plain before me.


My failure is the failure to deepen and expand my mental reserves of energy. I suspect my failure is chronic, widespread, and conditioned. The desire to succeed has not been overriding. My personal discipline faltered and my intellectual integrity was routed by petty desire. I am not alone. The burden of intellectual reflectivity invariably leads to this despair.

The price of a socially proscribed, authorized and guaranteed existence is the cost of all vital energy. This fact is embedded in the social unconscious but neurotic fear prevents conscious recognition. And yet despite this denial all those students who never question still suffer. All those students who are content to graze prefabricated ideals must be given a sign. The problem is acute: what must be done when they inevitably become drained of élan vital? All those students having been raised on television and hamburgers must submit their own idealism to be ground into sausage for the bourgeoisie. A spectacle is needed to substitute for the collective denial of flourishing.

UCA constantly organizes the spectacle. The spectacle is a proxy for the energy no individual can ascertain. It is designed to suggest a collective surplus at the heart of the educational enterprise. This event is portrayed as being so ecstatic that it occasionally erupts into choreographed and ritualized violence. To an intellectual, pacifist and ultimate Frisbee aficionado the effort compares only with the SUV for sheer hubris.
The enterprise of patriarchal sports is at once both an affirmation of the subjugation of the feminine and the defeat of the other who is efficient, less brutal and more constrained by common sense.

The spectacle is implicitly racists insofar as the sport gives rise to a broad system of financial subsidy and reproductive opportunity. The physical demands of labor and the overwhelming severity of modern war have eliminated the need for a physically robust phenotype. Only the spectacle of mainstream sports gives occasion to justify the perpetuation and sustainment of this type of human. Plato's republic is mirrored at the level of the high school and college game. Moral: selective breeding is encouraged; humans are products of the systems they inhabit.

I came to college with middle class values, middle class ideals. Somewhere along the way I began to yearn for the American dream. Now that dream is over. Effigies have been burned. My energy is gone. My heart is broken. I am weary. I want to perish. Who has done this to me? Answer: academia.

Sub A

Substance A has a density of 1.096 g/ml

We convert Liters of Substance A to grams of Sub A

1 Liter x 1.096g/ml x 10^3 ml/L = 1096 grams Substance A

20 Percent of Aqeous solution containing Sub A is Sub A... sooo...

1096 x 80% = 876.8 g Sub A

Now we convert Sub A grams to milligrams

876.8 g Sub A x 1000mg/1g = 876800 mg of Sub A

Now we divide Sub A by 200mg/dose = 4384 dose Units Sub A

Lets back up a minute and assume less than 100% yield..

876.8 x 40% = 350.72 g Sub A x 1000/200 = 1753.6 dose Units Sub A