Mark Twain called the Book of Mormon "chloroform in print."
I wonder if anyone can verify this?
11/30/2006
11/24/2006
Strattera
Started Strattera 18mg on Nov 2nd, worked up to 25 mg, then 40 mg. Discontinued due to side effects which include:
Chronic dry mouth
hypertension
rapid heart rate
insomnia
too easily awakened
appetite suppression
dysphoria
suicidal ideation
psychotic ideation
Withdrawal is mild and includes severe bout of suicidial ideation, irritability, dysphoria and fatigue.
Update: Withdrawal is more than mild. Profusive cold sweat, flu like symptoms such as headache, chills, fever, restlessness, lack of appetite, slight dizziness, rapid heart rate.
Chronic dry mouth
hypertension
rapid heart rate
insomnia
too easily awakened
appetite suppression
dysphoria
suicidal ideation
psychotic ideation
Withdrawal is mild and includes severe bout of suicidial ideation, irritability, dysphoria and fatigue.
Update: Withdrawal is more than mild. Profusive cold sweat, flu like symptoms such as headache, chills, fever, restlessness, lack of appetite, slight dizziness, rapid heart rate.
11/18/2006
Despair, failure, criticism
UCA is an ugly place now. It's become impersonal and congested. The track is now a parking lot. The hyper center is unusable owing to the excess enrollment. The library is always full. The town of Conway has become bloated with failed dreamers, middle class peons full of contempt. I can't participate in UCA anymore. The dream has been beaten to death. The indulgences have been saturated, and then taken one step further. If things weren't working I would just double the effort. Now the futility of that effort is plain before me.
My failure is the failure to deepen and expand my mental reserves of energy. I suspect my failure is chronic, widespread, and conditioned. The desire to succeed has not been overriding. My personal discipline faltered and my intellectual integrity was routed by petty desire. I am not alone. The burden of intellectual reflectivity invariably leads to this despair.
The price of a socially proscribed, authorized and guaranteed existence is the cost of all vital energy. This fact is embedded in the social unconscious but neurotic fear prevents conscious recognition. And yet despite this denial all those students who never question still suffer. All those students who are content to graze prefabricated ideals must be given a sign. The problem is acute: what must be done when they inevitably become drained of élan vital? All those students having been raised on television and hamburgers must submit their own idealism to be ground into sausage for the bourgeoisie. A spectacle is needed to substitute for the collective denial of flourishing.
UCA constantly organizes the spectacle. The spectacle is a proxy for the energy no individual can ascertain. It is designed to suggest a collective surplus at the heart of the educational enterprise. This event is portrayed as being so ecstatic that it occasionally erupts into choreographed and ritualized violence. To an intellectual, pacifist and ultimate Frisbee aficionado the effort compares only with the SUV for sheer hubris.
The enterprise of patriarchal sports is at once both an affirmation of the subjugation of the feminine and the defeat of the other who is efficient, less brutal and more constrained by common sense.
The spectacle is implicitly racists insofar as the sport gives rise to a broad system of financial subsidy and reproductive opportunity. The physical demands of labor and the overwhelming severity of modern war have eliminated the need for a physically robust phenotype. Only the spectacle of mainstream sports gives occasion to justify the perpetuation and sustainment of this type of human. Plato's republic is mirrored at the level of the high school and college game. Moral: selective breeding is encouraged; humans are products of the systems they inhabit.
I came to college with middle class values, middle class ideals. Somewhere along the way I began to yearn for the American dream. Now that dream is over. Effigies have been burned. My energy is gone. My heart is broken. I am weary. I want to perish. Who has done this to me? Answer: academia.
My failure is the failure to deepen and expand my mental reserves of energy. I suspect my failure is chronic, widespread, and conditioned. The desire to succeed has not been overriding. My personal discipline faltered and my intellectual integrity was routed by petty desire. I am not alone. The burden of intellectual reflectivity invariably leads to this despair.
The price of a socially proscribed, authorized and guaranteed existence is the cost of all vital energy. This fact is embedded in the social unconscious but neurotic fear prevents conscious recognition. And yet despite this denial all those students who never question still suffer. All those students who are content to graze prefabricated ideals must be given a sign. The problem is acute: what must be done when they inevitably become drained of élan vital? All those students having been raised on television and hamburgers must submit their own idealism to be ground into sausage for the bourgeoisie. A spectacle is needed to substitute for the collective denial of flourishing.
UCA constantly organizes the spectacle. The spectacle is a proxy for the energy no individual can ascertain. It is designed to suggest a collective surplus at the heart of the educational enterprise. This event is portrayed as being so ecstatic that it occasionally erupts into choreographed and ritualized violence. To an intellectual, pacifist and ultimate Frisbee aficionado the effort compares only with the SUV for sheer hubris.
The enterprise of patriarchal sports is at once both an affirmation of the subjugation of the feminine and the defeat of the other who is efficient, less brutal and more constrained by common sense.
The spectacle is implicitly racists insofar as the sport gives rise to a broad system of financial subsidy and reproductive opportunity. The physical demands of labor and the overwhelming severity of modern war have eliminated the need for a physically robust phenotype. Only the spectacle of mainstream sports gives occasion to justify the perpetuation and sustainment of this type of human. Plato's republic is mirrored at the level of the high school and college game. Moral: selective breeding is encouraged; humans are products of the systems they inhabit.
I came to college with middle class values, middle class ideals. Somewhere along the way I began to yearn for the American dream. Now that dream is over. Effigies have been burned. My energy is gone. My heart is broken. I am weary. I want to perish. Who has done this to me? Answer: academia.
9/24/2006
Sub A
Substance A has a density of 1.096 g/ml
We convert Liters of Substance A to grams of Sub A
1 Liter x 1.096g/ml x 10^3 ml/L = 1096 grams Substance A
20 Percent of Aqeous solution containing Sub A is Sub A... sooo...
1096 x 80% = 876.8 g Sub A
Now we convert Sub A grams to milligrams
876.8 g Sub A x 1000mg/1g = 876800 mg of Sub A
Now we divide Sub A by 200mg/dose = 4384 dose Units Sub A
Lets back up a minute and assume less than 100% yield..
876.8 x 40% = 350.72 g Sub A x 1000/200 = 1753.6 dose Units Sub A
We convert Liters of Substance A to grams of Sub A
1 Liter x 1.096g/ml x 10^3 ml/L = 1096 grams Substance A
20 Percent of Aqeous solution containing Sub A is Sub A... sooo...
1096 x 80% = 876.8 g Sub A
Now we convert Sub A grams to milligrams
876.8 g Sub A x 1000mg/1g = 876800 mg of Sub A
Now we divide Sub A by 200mg/dose = 4384 dose Units Sub A
Lets back up a minute and assume less than 100% yield..
876.8 x 40% = 350.72 g Sub A x 1000/200 = 1753.6 dose Units Sub A
9/10/2006
Caffeine and fatigue
So I have been experiencing some chronic fatigue lately and I am trying to track down the causative agent. Excluding the possibility of viral infection or parasitic agent (for want of practical means of determining presence of aforementioned theory) I am left with a usual suspect: caffeine.
I drink a lot of coffee lately to keep awake. But lately coffee just doesn't have that "kick." I think I may be stuck in a vicious cycle, or to put it another way I have reached the point of diminishing returns with the use of coffee.
Why do I think its coffee (more specifically caffeine) that's causing my chronic fatigue? Well, I wont bore you with an elaboration of my symptoms, but suffice it to say I normally get very tired during the day around noon or thereafter and am able to sleep for a few hours if allowed but sleep tends to be unrefreshing. This is troubling. I have noticed that since school started back I have been tired despite the lack of strenuous physical exertion. I drink a coffee in the morning and then maybe a couple at night.
Thankfully the Internet provides many fine technical/scientific answers that elaborate my predicament.
As I understand it Caffeine inhibits the decomposition of cAMP (Cyclic adenosine monophosphate) into AMP. cAMP is an important analog of ATP (and we should all know what that stands for by now).
According to wikipedia's fine article on cAMP:
"cAMP is a second messenger, used for intracellular signal transduction, such as transferring the effects of hormones like glucagon and adrenaline, which cannot get through the cell membrane. Its main purpose is the activation of protein kinases; it is also used to regulate the passage of Ca2+ through ion channels."
As can be inferred from the above the inhibition of so critical a substance in the human body over a prolonged period of time must surely result in changes both gross and subtle. One idea is that by inhibiting the breakdown of cAMP into AMP intracellular calcium stores become prematurely depleted, resulting in a cascading effect. Calcium dependent secondary messenger processes become less effective as a result. This is just one possibility, in fact there are many. In any case a good reason to take a break from coffee for a week and see if energy levels don't bounce back.
Calcium-Induced Calcium Release Contributes to Action Potential-Evoked Calcium Transients in Hippocampal CA1 Pyramidal Neurons
Biochemistry/Second Messenger
Cyclic_adenosine_monophosphate
I drink a lot of coffee lately to keep awake. But lately coffee just doesn't have that "kick." I think I may be stuck in a vicious cycle, or to put it another way I have reached the point of diminishing returns with the use of coffee.
Why do I think its coffee (more specifically caffeine) that's causing my chronic fatigue? Well, I wont bore you with an elaboration of my symptoms, but suffice it to say I normally get very tired during the day around noon or thereafter and am able to sleep for a few hours if allowed but sleep tends to be unrefreshing. This is troubling. I have noticed that since school started back I have been tired despite the lack of strenuous physical exertion. I drink a coffee in the morning and then maybe a couple at night.
Thankfully the Internet provides many fine technical/scientific answers that elaborate my predicament.
As I understand it Caffeine inhibits the decomposition of cAMP (Cyclic adenosine monophosphate) into AMP. cAMP is an important analog of ATP (and we should all know what that stands for by now).
According to wikipedia's fine article on cAMP:
"cAMP is a second messenger, used for intracellular signal transduction, such as transferring the effects of hormones like glucagon and adrenaline, which cannot get through the cell membrane. Its main purpose is the activation of protein kinases; it is also used to regulate the passage of Ca2+ through ion channels."
As can be inferred from the above the inhibition of so critical a substance in the human body over a prolonged period of time must surely result in changes both gross and subtle. One idea is that by inhibiting the breakdown of cAMP into AMP intracellular calcium stores become prematurely depleted, resulting in a cascading effect. Calcium dependent secondary messenger processes become less effective as a result. This is just one possibility, in fact there are many. In any case a good reason to take a break from coffee for a week and see if energy levels don't bounce back.
8/17/2006
Danny Glover's "Cahhp Killuz"
Lets say a .40 S&W Subsonic bullet moves at 1000 ft/sec.
So...
(1K ft)/Sec Converted to miles/hour
Equals 681.818 miles/hour
The speed of sound is approx: 340.29 meters/sec @ sea level
so...
340.29 meters/sec converted miles/hour
Equals 761.207 miles/hour
Killaz:
8/07/2006
Generation IV Nuclear power
Getting back to basics at the 5 directorate folks. Found this gem of a PDF that shows the various reactor designs that will meet future energy needs. Be careful, choose wisely. Our vote naturally goes to the HTGCR designs, but I'm also partial to Super critical H20 and CO2.
Idaho National Laboratories Future energy programs (PDF)
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